I guess I'm a hypocrite.

When someone does something that bothers me, I try to say as logical as possible.
I ask myself, "Would you have done the same thing?" "Have you done the same thing?"
Well, it really depends on the situation. And for this situation, I answered no.

I just don't know what's going on. Do I want to know what's going on?

Oh well, jealousy sucks.

So I'm done, I guess.

ttyl

I couldn't save the cheerleader. =/

Damn. We lost.
More importantly, I lost.

It's true that I wasn't the only one that lost, 3 other people did too.
But if I had just won, we, as a team, would of won.
Why did I have to lose.

I've lost before. But I never really cared about it until now.
Maybe it's because this time, it mattered the most.
I didn't just let my partner down, I let down my whole team.
And to be honest, the feeling sucks.

The team has lost before. But in the matches we lost, I won my own games.
I remember telling the people who beat themselves up for losing,
"Stop being a fucking drama queen. Everyone's lost before, it's not a big deal, the world keeps turning. Besides, don't act like your lost was all that mattered. Shit, you're not the center of the universe. Not everything is about you. Stop hogging the blame."

It just doesn't make me feel better =/

Michael Jordan said,
"I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed."

I feel bad because I feel so helpless. If I had a second chance, will I be able to succeed?
And that's what sucks the most.

re⋅sil⋅ience –noun

1. ability to recover readily from adversity.

All right!

Okay, let's get down to business.

For the past couple weeks, I've been awesome.

A couple months ago, I was saying/acting like I am the center of everyone's life.
Now I am, and it feels great!
Knowing that people have nothing better to talk about except for talking about me is so cool. Make me your topic. =]

On to tennis.
I've been playing a lot more lately. I learned some new stuff, I forgot some old stuff.
I'll be at my prime soon, I hope. Haha.

Yesterday was pretty cool! We beat CV for the first time in so many years!
We won 6 matches and lost only 1!

My match was okay I guess.
I was partnered with Brian Liang. We played Doubles2
But yeah, we won the first set 6-3 and right before we started the second set, our opponents forfeited. NICE! Win by default! Lol!

Anyway, my life has been simpler, kind of.

On Tuesday, we are playing against Moreau! Wish me luck, haha.

I guess I'll post a more meaningful blog next time.

Thanks for reading =]

IamTimothy